Alone in the dark

It’s hard cause I don’t really remember. I don’t know if I was alone in the room. I wasn’t sure if I was crying at all, I just remember feeling trapped like I was living in a dream where I was always sad. Everybody was bringing you up and I had to act like I knew what was going on, but we would never talk. The only thing I could do was shut my eyes and pretend it never happened. That’s why I now love the dark, there I could go back to quiet afternoons seeing you work outside. It never mattered how many times you came back cause I could never forget the first time I left your arms. I was a kid and even though you announced your goodbye, I never understood why you left my side.